'Train up a child in a way he should go and when he is old, he will not depart from it.' Proverbs 22:6
It's the 'what if' question again, looming at the back of my mind. The more I thought about it, the more consuming the fear of making the wrong decision gets... I could feel my heart racing and my anger rising. My heart aches and I was almost in tears last night as I thought about what might happen if we had made a wrong choice. What if it's not the right school for Alyssa? It's a good school and I have no doubt about this, but is this the school for our precious little girl? The email updates from her form teacher are already stressing me out and each time I read a new update, I feel increasingly uneasy. What are they looking for in a 7 year old child? Perfection in work? Why is she so hung up on full-stops, capital letters and absolute neatness? Why does she keep emphasizing that children's works are being penalized because they have not done the right thing (i.e. put full-stops in the right places, remembering to use capital letters, penmanship etc)? Why can't she accept that children are children and should be allowed to be children even in schools? Why has there not been any compliments for any efforts these little ones have put in? Is this education? Is this what school is going to like? Are there no flexibilities at all and does she not see each child as a special individual with different gifts, potentials, strengths and weaknesses? At this point, I feel that I am already desperately missing The King's School. I want my child to be herself, to enjoy school, to do well of course but having to conform to a human system that does not recognize the uniqueness and potential of each child is not what I desire for our children. My prayer is for them to become the women God has destined them to be and not to become the women society demands that they be.
Please, don't let them be taken from yellow meadows and green pastures and thrown into an abyss full of grades and status hungry homo sapiens!
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Our, or rather, Eric's special bedtime words to them each night: 'Alyssa and Annabeth, you are beautiful girls, who are going to grow up into beautiful young ladies. God loves you, Jesus loves you, daddy loves you, mommy loves you, je-je loves you (to Annabeth), mei-mei loves you (to Alyssa) and you love each other... and you are very special. Remember that." We thought, maybe if we say it often enough, they will always remember how precious they are, just the way they are, and that they will let no one tell them or make them feel otherwise.
By 'beautiful', we are not referring to beauty as the world sees it but beauty as God sees it : ' a broken spirit and a contrite heart', for 'The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Mans looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.' (1 Samuel 16:7)
*****Broken Within but Complete In Him*****
'He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress; my God, in Him I will trust." Psalm 921:1-2
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